Sunday, October 02, 2005

Rainy Louisville Day

I remember a time, three years (give or take a couple months) ago, when I made a journey to Indiana by bus, to see someone. In the name of love.
It was an interesting trip. But it was long, and involved a great losing of luggage. I remember arriving in Louisville tired, having to piss like a son of a bitch, and annoyed that my luggage was... well, somewhere most definately not Louisville.
Then I saw her.
It was the first time, up close, after a year of late night phonecalls and long letters.
And it wasnt like the movies.
I was tired. I was worried what her parents would think of me, and was looking for them over her shoulder before I looked into her eyes. I gave her a quick hug, one arm because I didnt know how much was too much for her folks, then shook hands with her parents, explained my luggage situation and asked politely if it would be too much trouble to stop at a Wal-Mart someplace so I could get a few things.
Thats pretty much how the week went. Well, I came down with a nasty cold, and she was fighting through one. But it never really lived up to expectations. We didnt "click". Too much nerves, too much tired, and in the end, too much difference.
And then I went home, on a rainy Louisville day. Looking out the bus windows, waving as she watched me leave.

STI Lawman

Occasionally I buy a gun magazine to drool over the pictures (because I havent read a really good article in a gun magazine in years) and check out current trends and "whats hot" etc.
I've looked at STI guns off and on before, and nothing has ever really jumped up and struck me - but I happened to catch an ad for their Lawman model in the current issue of American Handgunner, and was impressed enough with its looks to take a look at the website.
Sweet piece. Out of my price range, but still very nice.
When I get myself a 1911 I'm probably going to get a low-end box-stock Springfield Armory or a Kimber and then build it up to something close to that Lawman right there, save a little money and get a better idea of what I'm getting.

Saturday, October 01, 2005

The Problem with "Diversity"

I'm about to make myself un-popular, I'm afraid, but before I do I want to say something. Something I've actually said all too much in recent weeks - I Am Not a Racist, White Supremacist, White Separatist or any other form of "intolerant". There, happy now? Everyone can relax.
Well, probably not... after all, I'm about to say some rather imflamatory things that are quite contradictory to the current en-vogue perspective on how things "should be" as propogated in school and on tee-vee...

I've been watching the news on TV, reading the papers, and checking out the media outlets online as well as blogs and other webpages. I am a sort of infophile, I like to be informed. Unfortunately, instead of being informed lately I've been hearing more about how recent events in New Orleans and the rebuilding process are some sort of "war" on the black community.
Louis Farrakhan (Bloggers spell checker things Farrakhan should be Foreskin, as a humorous note) has stood up and said he knows, knows by Allah!, that Bush blew up the levee's in NOLA to flood the black areas of NOLA and kill or drive out the black people. Of course, ol' Louie is a fucking idiot, and I think everyone knows that (except for a passel of other religious zealots who think Louieness is next to Allah-y-ness).
Similar nuttery has been going around the web, with everyone from Aztlan (a Hispanic "radical" movement) to individual black bloggers claiming that, if no criminal detonations occurred, that racism at least occurred in the evacuation policies and is continuing in the current rebuilding. Again, just the tin-foil hat crowd venting their spleens.
But, tonight on the news there was a spokesman from the NAACP (National Association for the Advancement of Colored People) talking about how 33.6% of the black population wont be returning to New Orleans, and how that's part of a great white conspiracy to rebuild NOLA as a "white" city.

Do people actually believe this shit? Is there a large portion of the "African-American" population who is actually rallying around the idea that this is some great act of white hatred against "African-Americans"? (I hate that term - just as much as I hate "Welsh-Americans" [which I am] or "Irish-Americans" - We're American. Period. That's what American is, a melting pot nationality. If that's not good enough for you, if you have to add "African" or "Irish" or "Mexican" in front of American, then you loyalty is not with your country, so why don’t you go elsewhere?)

It was a natural disaster. They happen. They always have happened and they always will happen. Some will do relatively little, and some are going to do truly horrible things, but no matter what they are completely, totally, natural events.
People, of all colors and creeds, need to pull their heads out of the sand and accept this - the world is a hostile place, things do go bump in the night, its the natural order, life is hard, survival is not guaranteed but death is.
We need to stop looking for people to blame - we cant blame someone else for every thing that happens.
Yes, the system and its leaders failed miserably and didn't do for the people in the path of Hurricane Katrina what should have been done to make them safe - but did those people fail maliciously just to target black people?
NO.
Most certainly not. The majority of the population of New Orleans before Katrina was black (66.6 percent). Almost the entire population of NOLA below the poverty line was black. Who were the people who couldn't evacuate? The poor. Terrible coincidence, but malicious and racist? Bullshit. White folks were left down there too. White folks got trapped in the Superdome or Convention Center too. As did Latino's, Orientals, and Native Americans.
Yes, most of the people were black - was that because whitey evacuated everyone who wasn't? No. Its a simple numbers thing, you have a majority in an area who is of type A, and something bad happens in that area, who will suffer the most from it? Yes, people of "Type A".

(Now, earlier I know I said that those who were left behind were the "entitled" fools who didn't bother to get smart enough to leave - and I stick by that. I realize no everyone was like that though, and many people honestly had no way to get out. You can fault people for making the foolish choice to be solely dependent upon the city for aid in an emergency, but you cant fault them much for being stranded when that city welcomed their dependence and then abandoned them because the mayor is a retard.)

And now, in the aftermath, as the city rebuilds there are claims that it’s going to rebuild as a "white city". And that may be true - but it’s not a racist issue. A lot of people, in the worst hit areas (the poorest areas) were black. Those people have left the state, and a great many of them have done so thanks to the kindness of their fellow Americans of all colors and creeds who have, out of the goodness of their hearts, provided money, clothes, a place to stay, jobs and even entire houses for displaced families.
If you were given a new house, and a new job, that greatly improved your status in life, would you go back to a city full of un-repairable water damaged homes, still covered in disease filled mud from between six and twelve feet of flooding? Of course you wouldn't. No one in his or her right mind would.
Are those people not coming back black? Yes, a lot of them are - a majority of the population of NOLA is black, and the majority of the affected and displaced are black. There is simply no way that the majority of people not returning would be anything but black.

But, despite this obvious "numbers issue" black activists (and all sorts of minority activists, including [especially] those rich white folks who want to assuage some of the mythical "white guilt" by pretending to give a rats ass) are claiming that it was all about race. That a black mayor abandoned every black person in his city, and that now he and everyone in charge of the rebuilding operations are continuing that trend of abandonment and failing to provide, as part of a great white conspiracy to kill, or drive out, black people. They are getting on TV and claiming this as the truth, and getting all riled up about it.
And this raises a question, at least for me, the question that's the title of this post (and that probably has all of you hot under the collar still) - Do they want to be niggers?
Now, I’m not saying “they are niggers” – I abhor racism, its vile – but these people who make these claims, who act like this and rally around these nonsensical ideas honestly seem to me as if they would be happier if everyone just called them “nigger”. They would feel justified in their claims if that happened – they want, so badly, for someone to blame, someone to be responsible for them, that I think they would actually accept the title of “nigger” so long as it gave them more leverage for their whining, crying and swindling of the system.
Many members of other minority groups do this, but right now yes I am focusing on blacks who do this.
They start out preaching “brotherhood” and “equality” as strength in the face of disaster, but at the first hint of something going wrong it starts, “Masa, help us! You owes us, Masa!” playing off bleeding-heart white guilt, that somehow by being a minority group they are worse off and more deserving of help than anyone else. And finally when that doesn't get enough attention, they are twisting events so they can say "Masa tried to KILL us, masa tried to drive us away, masa is conspirin’ ‘gainst us!”
Instead of standing up on their own two feet, and standing straight with their own spines, they want not only someone to blame, but someone other than themselves to be responsible for them.
They claim they want equality and independence, but when the chips are down what card gets played? The "We're a minority, you owe us!" card - they don't want to be equally responsible, they don't want to be independent when it means working, they want to be taken care of. And that is patently bullshit. If they don't want to be "whiteys nigger" then they need to suck it up, like they've got a pair, and stand up on their own legs instead of playing the "minority" card.

Being a minority isn’t an entitlement to snivel and wait for someone else to help you.
What happened to being truly proud of your heritage and taking strength from that? I thought that’s what “celebrating diversity” was all about.
Why cant people stand up and proudly say “I am ‘whatever’ and I don’t need anyone’s help – I am responsible for myself”?
What’s wrong with that? Nothing.
And oh yes, its paid a lot of lip service too – but when the chips are down, minorities are entitled, and the majority is guilty of nothing short of gross-criminal-negligence when we don’t kowtow to their ever whim, whine, snivel and sobbing demand.

And this is something we, as an entire nation of diverse ethnicities, have brought upon ourselves by celebrating Diversity, instead of Unirt.
This idea that we must all "celebrate diversity", and that being a minority makes you special leads to just this kind of behavior.
Celebrating diversity just creates more division between the races – it draws the dividing lines deeper, and then keeps filling them in with heavy black-ink.
If I celebrated a "white history month" I would be called a neo-Nazi and a racist scumbag, but Black History Month is a wonderful celebration of the oppressed and minority “African American” community in the nation.
Am I the only who sees these types of celebrations as just reinforcing to the idea that minorities are oppressed? You keep telling a people they are oppressed, and thus entitled, and pretty soon that’s the only world they will know.
But no, it’s beautiful to celebrate cultural “diversity”.
Everyone who is Latino, Asian, Black, or Middle Eastern is entitled to have a unique culture, and to celebrate it (here in America) as separate and special from American culture – but white American’s aren’t allowed shit, a celebration of that is “racist”.
Anyone else see the double standard here?
I have no problem with cultural heritage, but I think everyone should be entitled to celebrate theirs.

No one is any more special than anyone else because of the color of his or her skin. We're all human, that should be enough. "Special" is a quality of personal character, unique and individual to each and every human being - not to an entire group, race or religion.

Diversity is junk - it’s just another form of racism, promoting the drawing of dividing lines between the races and encouraging racist, classist, attitudes.
What we need is Unity, not Diversity.
Unity to stand up as Americans, as Humans, and rebuild our cities and populations after a disaster - to call to task those who failed, and to celebrate those who stood strong, not to hunt boogers and make up reasons to expand the dividing lines and cry "poor me!” That kind of thing is killing our nation, and is truly breeding racism.
We don't need "minority" and "majority" groups, when you make those kinds of definitions someone will ALWAYS get the short end of the stick. We don't need "Diversity" - that's just a nice word for saying "racial separatism" - we need Unity. Everyone standing up together - Strong, proud and capable, as Americans.
American should not be a bad word. American without and preface should not be a bad thing. Not Black-American, African-American, White-American, Irish-American, Indian-American, just plain AMERICAN. United, strong - one people who are capable of dealing with problems, fixing mistakes and rebuilding from disaster.
But... no. American is a bad word. We are not united. We are not strong. We are divided - we are minority or majority, we are "diverse", we are "something-American", and we are a bickering, quarrelsome, nation always pointing the finger at each other and screaming insults. We are weak.
And it makes me terribly sad. Because I am not only proud of my country, I love my country - I love the ideals that my country was founded upon, strength, self-reliance, and honest independence. And I love the people in my country, of all races, colors, and creeds, who uphold those ideals.
But, there are all these people, all shapes and sizes and colors of people, who don’t – and they are ruining my country.

Friday, September 23, 2005

The War on Porn

I'll be the first to tell you, I like porn.
I like women, to begin with, I like women a lot. Particularly beautiful women. (And before one of these "Porn is the Theory, Rape is the Practice" people fires off about liking to see women "degraded" into my comments, let me also say that I believe in strong, powerful, capable women and am actually more attracted to those women than mousy housy wifey types (see Here and Here). I think a little roleplay can be healthy in a relationship, but I absolutely do not like to see women "submitting" to or "degraded" by anyone.)
I yes, I like to see them naked. And no, not just artfully naked, shot through gauze, in funky lighting, in black and white (although I like art nudes too), I like porn. Naughty, entertaining, unrealistic, fanciful, implausible, silly, Debbie Does Dallas-y, "big titty, spread cheeky" Porn.
I figure a woman who gets in front of a camera naked and lets the photog snap away knows what she's doing, and what its for, and is okay with that or she wouldnt be there. (And I'm not talking Linda Lovelace, and forced porn - thats rape, and my opinion of rapists is that they'd make great fertalizer.)
But, to my way of thinking there is nothing wrong with normal porn. Now, you get someone taking pictures while he molests a nine year old, and you're back into the territory of my "Fuckers Who Need Killed" list. We're not talking deviance, cruelty, abuse or actual torture, just porn. No one has to look at it, or be in it - those who choose to, should be allowed to choose to so long as they do it in the privacy of their own homes (I work at a library part time, and the shit some people look at in public amazes me) and dont involve anyone other than consenting adults.
Apparently though, a lot of people disagree and now even my tax dollars get wasted on it.

FBI Forms Porn Squad


Some Nutcases even think that viewing porn releases a "toxin" into the brain that stimulates fear, shame and anger and can cause rape.
Gimmie a fucking break, I'm a Psych. major and a rather well read medical professional, and that is patently bullshit. Were that true, I'd be a serial rapist by now - I've looked at a lot of porn, and never once thought "boy, I sure hate those bitches, I'd like to go rape me one o' them". (Also not that the woman behind this theory, although a PhD, is not any sort of psychiatric or medical professional, her PhD is in Communications. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Judith_Reisman Once again, let me say, fucking puh-lease!)

And The UK, role-model Nanny State for would-be EuroTrash politicians everywhere, is of course considering banning some forms of internet porn, because one murderer happened to have some on his PC. I'm as appalled as anyone else that a woman would be raped and murdered, and that that turns on some people, but I really dont see a problem with actors and actresses PRETENDING that warrants JAIL SENTANCES. People should be allowed their fantasy freely, but be punished heavily if they try to carry it out. We see nearly hard-core images of rape and murder on television every night - the monsters among us get wood to that just as much as they do to any pornography.

I'm sorry, but this is a waste of fucking Law Enforcement, Academia and Legislative powers. Truly, its a waste.
If you're a church mother, who doesnt like porn, I have shocking news for you - You dont have to look at it, and you can put excellent filters on your kids computers against it!
If you're a rapist, and want to blame porn because you dont have the stones to stand up and admit that you're just a fucked up piece of shit all by yourself, well... fuck you. The society should be (should be) smart enough to recognize a piss poor excuse for deviance when they see one.
Everyone decides their fate for themselves - they decide their actions. Nothing can make someone a rapist, they are or they are not.
I honestly believe that a lot of these people who "crusade" against porn, claiming that it causes these forms of deviance, actually have the tendancies to rape and torture, and dont believe they can control themselves if their libido gets going a little bit, so they try to control everyone else out of a fear of themselves. They are damaged fucking goods, and refuse to take responsibility for their own actions.

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Fire on the Mountain, and its Raining

I stood in the yard, looking east at the Sierra Ladrones (Thieves Mountain) that rise to 8'000 feet some ten miles from my home. A large canyon down the west slope was awash with flame, hot sports flaring up into the darkness like distressed signal beacons. Ocassionally the flare of headlights or taillights as the Bureau of Land Management fire crews moved up and down the line, herding their beast where they wanted it long into the night.
This morning, under grey skies, the columns of smoke rose from lower down the western slope as they moved operations down to the foothills, burning a few miles of slash. They've been doing controlled burns since day before yesterday.
Rain clouds built in the south west all day, and have come rolling and thundering in to sit above the dry country with a few teasing droplets of rain.
And the country does look dry, it seems as though fall just fell over everything in the last few days. The grasses have turned yellow again, and the leaves on the tree's around the stock pond have begun their change as well.
Driving to work I saw four bucks standing beside the road. At first I just saw one, and as I looked he ran and became four. Its amazing how they can melt out of the trees like that, you focus on one and the rest just fall into your vision.

The equinox has come - I hope it is a good fall.

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Eloquence

Sometimes I can be a well spoken little shit... I amaze even myself, and sometimes I'm so bright my pa calls me son!

Perfection, or as close as we will ever get to it, is a state of action not gear.
Chaos Live


Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Why Would Anyone Need to Own a Gun?

As a gun owner I've been asked, many times, "why in the world would anyone actually need a gun?" and my answer to that question is very good, although not always short. I'm sure some readers of this blog have wanted to ask me that question, and although my answer can actually be found in older entries, I've got an answer for you from someone else.

http://www.detnews.com/2005/editorial/0509/18/A17-318167.htm
The Detroit News is not exactly a conservative rag - in fact I'd have ventured to say it was a leftist bastion of anti-gunnery before today, so I'm not just spreading around a sermon to the choir.
Read it, its a good article.

[Update]Actually, since its short, I'm going to quote it here, given the fickle nature of eNewspapers and active links.

Katrina chaos boosts case for 2nd Amendment

By Nolan Finley / The Detroit News

As New Orleans flooded and whatever civil society the city could lay claim to disintegrated, those left behind needed two things: a powerful will to survive and a gun.

Hurricane Katrina might end up being the best friend the Second Amendment ever had.

Gun dealers across the country are reporting increased sales. People who saw on television what happens when government can't deliver on the promise of protecting its citizens are buying firearms as an insurance policy against anarchy.

That assurance of government-provided security has convinced individual Americans to gradually trade in their unrestrained constitutional right to bear arms.

But for days, there was no law in New Orleans and no government to speak of. All rules were off.

While the politically correct version of what happened is that desperate people looted stores for food and water, that's only part of the story. Bands of armed hoodlums roamed the city, smashing their way into businesses and homes, carting off jewelry, liquor, televisions and other goods that had nothing to do with survival.

People were murdered, raped, stripped of their meager provisions.

Those with the best chance of surviving were the ones who had shotguns, rifles and pistols stashed away in closets and drawers.

Homeowner John Carolan ran off a mob of young men armed with knives and machetes and intent on stealing his generator by firing a few rounds from a .357 Magnum over their heads. "They scattered," he told reporters.

After looters poured into a nursing home and carted off the food, water and medicine, administrator Peggy Hoffman told the Associated Press, "we'll have to equip our department heads with guns and teach them how to shoot."

Lots of Americans are thinking about shooting lessons today.

The tiresome question, "Why does anyone need a gun?" now has its answer.

Order can deteriorate in this country to the point where nothing stands between the law-abiding citizen and the marauding mob except blue steel. It happened in New Orleans. It can happen anywhere else in America at anytime.

It will be harder now for the anti-gun lobby to convince Americans to dismantle even more of the Second Amendment.

Of course, they'll try to spin this to say that were there no guns to begin with, the looters wouldn't have been armed and dangerous. But thieves, murderers and the rest of the rabble have always been more ingenious at procuring weapons than law-abiding citizens.

No amount of gun control laws will keep the dark side of this society from arming itself for evil purposes.

To twist the old bumper sticker, Americans will give up their guns when they can be certain all the guns have been pried out of the cold, dead fingers of all the bad guys.

Until then, they'll prefer to keep a little heat in the house.

Nolan Finley is editorial page editor of The News. Reach him at (313) 222-2064 or at nfinley@ detnews.com. Watch Nolan Finley on "Am I Right," 8:30 p.m. Fridays on Detroit Public Television, Ch. 56.