I lack the eloquence to teach what I know... and I also lack the knowledge to teach the things I have learned. Because to learn and believe only requires so much... but to teach, to break others free of lies and deceit and deception, that requires so much. Paradigm's will not shift without it unless one becomes extremely lucky.
This is a source of much frustrations, kiddies. I feel in-adequate to voice opinions or concepts, truisms of my reality, when I feel so un-learned, un-knowing and impatient.
This is the horror of my duality this evening... a burning desire to share, and an inability to do so. I cannot even make art to do it... it is all stale and flat, and the words have no meaning or feeling leaving my tongue, it is as if speaking with a voice of sand across a desert, nothing shaking, nothing shattering... nothing accomplished.